aim-less..............

alone at home again..
Daddy went for golf wif Jack n Bernard uncle
Mummy went korkor hse
Jiejie went watch volleyball match at Jurong Sports Hall
only left wif me at home...........

din feel like gg out though
didn't know where to go or wat to do
life is so meaning-less
how I wish I could slp all day
as while slping I do not need to tink of anything
and at times, having swt dreams making u feel like not waking up

I really duno wat I wan now
Further studies? Or to start working?
Recently, have been asking my frens on wat I should choose
UOL or RMIT?? <-- SIM
I'm interested in the course name perhaps in RMIT
but I feel like gg for UOL partly due to is more recognised
anyway, I submitted my application to RMIT 2 weeks ago
but not yet submitted all my documents though
I went over to SIM last wednesday to submit my documents
and I tink I was too clever tat I did not bring my
'O' Levels cert and my diploma cert...
Diploma cert I know is in my tat black grad file
but 'O' levels cert?????????
So I search high and low in my room
and suddenly I tink I haven collected it yet
So I called up blss (my sec sch)
and found tat my cert is really still there (since 2006???)
and I'm the last in my class to collect the cert.. =P
So probably will be gg down tml to submit?

Once again, I tink of him...............
and well, I wont be seeing him tis week
and I tink tat will be good
Seeing him lesser will lessen my pain? (*impossible i guess)
Will avoiding him be the way or I should get a clear cut
such as ........ ...??

I wonder why...............................

I dunno why I suddenly haf e feeling of blogging..
I wonder how many still rmb my blog

Well,
so many things happen recently..
or perhaps they are jus e same things happening
but it really hinders me..
Haf u ever feel like how I feel as if thousands of needles are piercing into ur heart when u heard something or see something tat makes u tink u are jus an substitute to someone?
Or perhaps I should say I'm really jus a substitute..

'You' will nv be able or get e chance to read tis post
neither will u feel anything reading tis post
as I am jus a substitute to u, am I right?
It's true tat I know wat I'm gg for now has no future
but wat I want is jus some care n concern
and not jus being tat person, a substitute!

Yes I know I'm being stupid to type all these
but I really need to say it out..
Sometimes I really feel like crying
at times, you treat me as if I'm e queen
at times, you treat me better than the rest
and I really someone tat good to bully?
am I being tat naive to tink tat u haf changed?
I haf being doing things tat u like
take care of ur things
trying to improve myself to let u know tat I haf changed to be someone capable of helping u and not to hinder ur work..
can you see it? did u ever realise it?
I doubt you do..
Perhaps its really time for a change..
studying will be a good thing for me to cool down I guess
I will need studies to numb myself to not tink of you
perhaps seeing u lesser will lessen my pain..

anyway, you nv seems to need me though
all I did was one-sided I guess..
I wish u happiness and I will try hard to forget u..
and I know its gonna be difficult............

slept till 5 plus today
bathe and went out to look for Deon at IMM
to take my colour contact lens (LALALA!!！）
she was working at FILA wif her bf
aft tat took bus back
sadly it was raining
and I got drenched while trying to cross e road
to e other side of e bus stop to take 187
so was drenched..
wahs.. super cold lors.. omg..
had noe earlier ask daddy come fetch me.. hahas..
so had bee hoon soup for dinner..

alright I tink tat's all..
I'm off to watch my 超级星光大道！ YEAS!
-BYE!-

I'm back! HAPPY NEW YR!

HAPPY NEW YR!!!
a new yr has began
and I'm back to blogging again!

but I wonder does anyone still remember my blog?

went out wif Jane, JS, Wendy and Eileen
had lunch at Aston (suntec city)
tat was my first time dining at Aston
portion were small, price were reasonable
we also celebrated wendy belated bday dere
while preparing for the cake
jane n js were damn funny (yiings should noe why)
hahahahas..

aft lunch went over to river hongbao side to see e uk funfair
like nth much de lehs..
dun even haf pirate ship -> BORING!
Wendy, JS and I also bought 4D at e river hongbao dere
dere's a booth hosted by Singapore Pools
I tink tat was e first time JS bought 4D?? hahas..

aft tat I suggested drinking sugar cane at Makan Sutra
so slack dere for some time then go off liao
nth to do de..

-BYE!-

Fairway Club or Fairway Golf Club??

wahs..
total my first time go FAIRWAY CLUB or FAIRWAY GOLF CLUB??
cannot remember the name.. hahas..
what i can say abt the place is...........
is some sort of 'old'??
had golf there and the ball seems to go bery far
I guess is the range small bahs. hahas.. watever..
aft tat when eat then chill abit then go home liao
cos tml still got sch.. hais.

2nd day of day 1 of sch

had......
MCDONALDS BREAKFAST wif JANE AND EILEEN
like after so long of holidays?? hahas..
after tat was back to IT Security & Management lesson
lesson was alright, perhaps due to my faci bahs..
a funny and humorous guy is what I can say abt him!

I think tat's all bahs.. B-Y-E!

stupid dumby ass faci

I'm SUPER SUPER SUPER ANGRY today!
dun ask why...........
another boring day
idiotic faci...
idiotic pple
attend her class still got dress code de

cannot wear tank-top tat will show (i dunno how to spell)
cannot wear shorts or short skirt
cannot wear slippers

Faci: "I got a class where that's this 2 persons who wear the same slippers to sch, but different color, and jus nice their size are the same. So so so, they exchange slippers to wear. One wear the left of his fren and the right of his own. While another wear the right of his fren and left of his own."

what is wrong wif her sia???
I have not hear of cannot wear this cannot wear tat
in my 2 and a half yrs in RP!
erm.. cannot wear slippers got hear lahs
but everyone jus wore..

her lesson was boring..
she likes to mentions things abt her 3 cats
which I'm not interested!
presentation cannot read from slides lahs
reference mus wear like author, date, website
so mafan lahs..
who cares whr u get the website from
as if u will go see wat we presented and verify like tat
stupid!

I tink tat's all bahs..
fed-up dun wanna tok liaos..
B-Y-E.

2nd day of sch

today boring leh..
Jane nv come sch becos she got no lesson today
I had Sales and Marketing Information Systems today
dun really like the faci
though she seems nice
I tink the thing why I dun like her is becos of her voice bahs
dun ask me like how
I dunno how to describe lahs..

I got like tongue-tied during presenting?
hais.. it always happens during my first few presentation in new class
boring.. dun wanna say anything anymore..

B-Y-E.

!st day of sch!

today first day of sch..
everything was ok I tink??
knew 6 persons in e class
but din really feel like toking to them
dun ask me why..

jus notice last night tat the faci who take me for
IT Security & Management (which is e lesson for today)
is my FYP ADVISOR!! <-- OMG!!!
So scary...
but he's a funny guy I tink..
he greet everyone a 'loud' good morning
whenever anyone step in to the class
I was not really awake yet but eventually woke up
aft he tat 'loud' good morning!

lesson was alright bahs..
abit cannot follow lehs.. dunno why..
maybe too long no study liao.. hahas...
mm.. aft tat was dinner wif daddy and mummy
and daddy say "Oh! U wore jeans to sch today!" =.=
I bery long nv wear jeans to sch mehs?? LOLs!!!!!!

I'm tired and I tink tat's all..
B-Y-E!!! =)

It's FAMILY DAY!!! =D

nth to say much abt today ehs..
like usual lors..
Jackson, Lynda n Valerie come our hse for mj
had dinner and play wif valerie

many pics taken today..
all got VALERIE DE!!!
and also her family pic!
so enjoy! =D

JieJie, Me and Lynda


Family pic!


Random
Valerie "qiang wen" Lynda! hahahs!!!