aim-less..............

alone at home again..
Daddy went for golf wif Jack n Bernard uncle
Mummy went korkor hse
Jiejie went watch volleyball match at Jurong Sports Hall
only left wif me at home...........

din feel like gg out though
didn't know where to go or wat to do
life is so meaning-less
how I wish I could slp all day
as while slping I do not need to tink of anything
and at times, having swt dreams making u feel like not waking up

I really duno wat I wan now
Further studies? Or to start working?
Recently, have been asking my frens on wat I should choose
UOL or RMIT?? <-- SIM
I'm interested in the course name perhaps in RMIT
but I feel like gg for UOL partly due to is more recognised
anyway, I submitted my application to RMIT 2 weeks ago
but not yet submitted all my documents though
I went over to SIM last wednesday to submit my documents
and I tink I was too clever tat I did not bring my
'O' Levels cert and my diploma cert...
Diploma cert I know is in my tat black grad file
but 'O' levels cert?????????
So I search high and low in my room
and suddenly I tink I haven collected it yet
So I called up blss (my sec sch)
and found tat my cert is really still there (since 2006???)
and I'm the last in my class to collect the cert.. =P
So probably will be gg down tml to submit?

Once again, I tink of him...............
and well, I wont be seeing him tis week
and I tink tat will be good
Seeing him lesser will lessen my pain? (*impossible i guess)
Will avoiding him be the way or I should get a clear cut
such as ........ ...??

I wonder why...............................

I dunno why I suddenly haf e feeling of blogging..
I wonder how many still rmb my blog

Well,
so many things happen recently..
or perhaps they are jus e same things happening
but it really hinders me..
Haf u ever feel like how I feel as if thousands of needles are piercing into ur heart when u heard something or see something tat makes u tink u are jus an substitute to someone?
Or perhaps I should say I'm really jus a substitute..

'You' will nv be able or get e chance to read tis post
neither will u feel anything reading tis post
as I am jus a substitute to u, am I right?
It's true tat I know wat I'm gg for now has no future
but wat I want is jus some care n concern
and not jus being tat person, a substitute!

Yes I know I'm being stupid to type all these
but I really need to say it out..
Sometimes I really feel like crying
at times, you treat me as if I'm e queen
at times, you treat me better than the rest
and I really someone tat good to bully?
am I being tat naive to tink tat u haf changed?
I haf being doing things tat u like
take care of ur things
trying to improve myself to let u know tat I haf changed to be someone capable of helping u and not to hinder ur work..
can you see it? did u ever realise it?
I doubt you do..
Perhaps its really time for a change..
studying will be a good thing for me to cool down I guess
I will need studies to numb myself to not tink of you
perhaps seeing u lesser will lessen my pain..

anyway, you nv seems to need me though
all I did was one-sided I guess..
I wish u happiness and I will try hard to forget u..
and I know its gonna be difficult............

slept till 5 plus today
bathe and went out to look for Deon at IMM
to take my colour contact lens (LALALA!!！）
she was working at FILA wif her bf
aft tat took bus back
sadly it was raining
and I got drenched while trying to cross e road
to e other side of e bus stop to take 187
so was drenched..
wahs.. super cold lors.. omg..
had noe earlier ask daddy come fetch me.. hahas..
so had bee hoon soup for dinner..

alright I tink tat's all..
I'm off to watch my 超级星光大道！ YEAS!
-BYE!-

I'm back! HAPPY NEW YR!

HAPPY NEW YR!!!
a new yr has began
and I'm back to blogging again!

but I wonder does anyone still remember my blog?

went out wif Jane, JS, Wendy and Eileen
had lunch at Aston (suntec city)
tat was my first time dining at Aston
portion were small, price were reasonable
we also celebrated wendy belated bday dere
while preparing for the cake
jane n js were damn funny (yiings should noe why)
hahahahas..

aft lunch went over to river hongbao side to see e uk funfair
like nth much de lehs..
dun even haf pirate ship -> BORING!
Wendy, JS and I also bought 4D at e river hongbao dere
dere's a booth hosted by Singapore Pools
I tink tat was e first time JS bought 4D?? hahas..

aft tat I suggested drinking sugar cane at Makan Sutra
so slack dere for some time then go off liao
nth to do de..

-BYE!-

Fairway Club or Fairway Golf Club??

wahs..
total my first time go FAIRWAY CLUB or FAIRWAY GOLF CLUB??
cannot remember the name.. hahas..
what i can say abt the place is...........
is some sort of 'old'??
had golf there and the ball seems to go bery far
I guess is the range small bahs. hahas.. watever..
aft tat when eat then chill abit then go home liao
cos tml still got sch.. hais.

2nd day of sch

today boring leh..
Jane nv come sch becos she got no lesson today
I had Sales and Marketing Information Systems today
dun really like the faci
though she seems nice
I tink the thing why I dun like her is becos of her voice bahs
dun ask me like how
I dunno how to describe lahs..

I got like tongue-tied during presenting?
hais.. it always happens during my first few presentation in new class
boring.. dun wanna say anything anymore..

B-Y-E.

!st day of sch!

today first day of sch..
everything was ok I tink??
knew 6 persons in e class
but din really feel like toking to them
dun ask me why..

jus notice last night tat the faci who take me for
IT Security & Management (which is e lesson for today)
is my FYP ADVISOR!! <-- OMG!!!
So scary...
but he's a funny guy I tink..
he greet everyone a 'loud' good morning
whenever anyone step in to the class
I was not really awake yet but eventually woke up
aft he tat 'loud' good morning!

lesson was alright bahs..
abit cannot follow lehs.. dunno why..
maybe too long no study liao.. hahas...
mm.. aft tat was dinner wif daddy and mummy
and daddy say "Oh! U wore jeans to sch today!" =.=
I bery long nv wear jeans to sch mehs?? LOLs!!!!!!

I'm tired and I tink tat's all..
B-Y-E!!! =)

Ouch!! Gugu.. Pain Pain! =(

out wif my sis to acc VALERIE to KK Hospital
cos she fell down tat day at home
and had 2 stitches below her chin **sobs!**
but today we go is to take out her stitches
and and and.........
SHE CRIED SUPER LOUD WHEN TAKING OUT THE STITCHES!
my sis and I hear le also heart pain.. hais..

had WARAKU (Novena Sq) for lunch at bout 5?
and you noe wat??
VALERIE slept on my lap when we are ordering food
and and and...
she told me to cover her eyes using the menu
cos she say it's too bright!
and within 5min, she really fallen aslp.. *diaos..*

so aft tat fetch my sis to SP for training
then we went my hse downstairs to meet my parents
and headed down to Owen Rd de 7th Month bai bai dere.
VALERIE keep wan to bai bai
I also dunno why.. *but it's good!*
daddy n mummy were a little tipsy
so so so.. I drove home! =)
lastly, PICTURES!!!

Me, Valerie and JieJie at KK Hospital before taking out her stitches


Lastly, B-Y-E!!! =)

Stop the silly tot in me pls!

HOHOHO!!!
me good mood today cos valerie is coming!
mummy woke me up like 12plus asking me why valerie haven come
so no choice woke up msg-ed Jackson (my cousin)
and he say will be here bout 2pm cos he watching show now

so I couldnt slp anymore, wake up n bath
and here I am blogging again..
and stupid tots comes to my mind again!
~~HEY U! PLS STOP TINKING ABT IT ANYMORE!~~
~~NTH WILL COME OUT OF IT!~~
silly me.. =(

ok.. got to go get ready Xuan de toys le..
BBB---YYY---EEE!!!

COMEX! I'm coming! =)

wahs.. excited lehs..
I'm returning to work tml aft so long??? LOL!!!
I 2 or 3 mths plus no work liao..
everything also like forget liao lehs.. *OH NO!*
hahas.. but I tink nvm lahs..
I'm working verification tis COMEX 2009! (*not angel anymore!* <= YEAHS!)
angels hors.. seriously bery tiring le..
imagine u haf to stand from 10 plus in e morning
till at night 10 plus 11??
aft tat, leg sore when stand or trying to walk also will pain lahs..

Oopps!! enough of my complaining..
It's like so long already??
There's a briefing ltr at Suntec at 6.15pm or 6.30pm?
ok, I'm gg to go n get ready now!
if not ltr late super paiseh de lehs.. =P

B-Y-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LALALALALA!!!!! =)

wat is wrong wif me??!?!?!!

seriously I do not noe wat I'm doing.
keep tinking of silly things
running away from reality
no mood to go work (in fact I haf not called my agent yet =P)
8 days has passed, and I haven really done anything.
always wanted holidays, but now got holidays liaos
feel like gg back sch..
wat am I tinking???????????

almost everyday sleep till 2 plus 3 then wake up
bathe nua abit use com watch drama/tv.....
but of cos got meet up wif frens lahs.
but it isn't wat I want!!!!!
WHY DOESN'T I HAF THE COURAGE TO DO WAT I WANT?!?!?!
perhaps wat I wanted to do is not realistic bahs.

ok, IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE!!!!!
I'm gonna wake up like 10plus tml (*trying to!!),
call my agent n ask her help me find slots for work,
help daddy pay bills,
buy necessities,
and.......

LALALALALA!!!! WATEVER!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~B-Y-E~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FELL DOWN!!

turtle!!!
I FELL DOWN!! while walking to JP
sadded~~
and it hurts okaes..
told Qihui she dun believe.. *angry!

Qihui msg me jus now ask how I was liaos..
then gave me a 'first-hand news' LMAOs...
she sae is first-hand.. Zzz...
and u noe wat is it??
yiings kiss parry!!
and of cos I dun believe her
she sae todae I nv go sch
dey play true or dare then yiings kiss parry
hahas... yeas.. at first was funny arhs..
but when she continue her 'story' then no longer funny liaos lors
anyway thanks arhs Qihui..

alright now are e pics of my wound to convince Qihui I FELL!

tired, really tired

yea..jus wake up not long..
being really tired recently..
and I'm jus back from m'sia yesterdae
rush all e way back jus to take my driving lesson
which costs me $59.92??
hahas..a little 'BLUR' or 'DUMB' of me
to forgot to bring my phone along wif me to m'sia
make until my frens unable to find me
tot I MIA liao
especially EILEEN AND JANE arhs!!

nth much happens..
I'm like trying to run away from reality
tat's why I agree to go to m'sia
I do not know how to face it thus I chose to run away from it
saw him before I went to m'sia
he is still so 'charming' as ever??
how I wish I haf e courage to go up to him n ...
tok to him I meant...

decided to stay hm to count-down tis yr..
had a few grps of pple asking me to countdown tgt
but I jus feel like staying hm
sorry pple!!

well, here are some pics taken quite some times ago
LIM's gathering at Suntec


SW Lim,Cat Lim,SC Lim,Valerie Lim,Shirley Lim,Meow Lim


pple in tis pic:
>Daddy
>Shirley (da gugu)
>Meow (er gugu)
>Catherine (xiao gugu aka SMALL MUSHROOM!!)
>Bas (cat's husband)
>Jack (tang ge)
>Linda (jack's wife)
>SiewWen (sis)
>ZhiYong (sis's bf)
>SiewChen (me!)
>Valerie (jack n linda's baby)


jus another pic


jiejie n me wif valerie!


RANDOM PICS

my new washing machine


PASSED my BTT!!


PASSED my FTT!!

another boring day...

nth much happen today
wake up at ard 11.30am
brush teeth, bathe, set up 2 mj table,
watch tv while waiting for them to come back..
(them: daddy,mummy,ah ma,uncle,sis n bf)

had long john for breakfast or should I call lunch??
hahas..mm yea..
watch tv till abt 3pm waiting for jack,linda n baby to come
my poor little bao bei is sick
she got 'feng mo' (some kind of rashes tat got to do wif wind??)
e whole day she was feeling down
feed her milk wif her medicine inside and
surprisely she din reject n drank all! good gal *muacks!

luck's not tat good today, lost $12 today at mj
not tat bad rite?? hahas..yea..
mmm..
couldnt concentrate on playing
couldnt help not tinking of 'him'

went for dinner at clementi
then send ah ma back hm
mm ok I forgot wat's tat place called
is behind e train station de..
then on our way back we saw 2 accidents *sadded
one is car and motor then if I'm not wrong
one person died
cos we see him/her covered wif a black cloth
lying on e road in a pool of blood
police car was dere but ambulance not yet come
another one was at near boon lay inter
a taxi and a vios
both in front crashed
hope everything is okae for all..

alrite enough of toking
got to slp now
having driving lesson tml

PS: am not in e mood to upload e pics, will do tat when I feel better

wat happen to me?!?!?

yea.. jus had daddy company de annual dinner
dinner was held at Trader's Hotel at Orchard
its a hotel by Shangri-La..

dishes dere are not bad
1st: 'cold plate' -> appetiser
2nd: shark's fin
3rd: roast duck
4th: vegetable with prawn and scallop
5th: celery with mushroom and abalone
6th: red groupa
7th: fried glutinous rice
8th: yam paste with gingko nuts

din really eat much at e table which I'm suppose to sit at
ate more when go to e other table
cos he was dere..
u should now be wondering who is he rite??
but I am not gonna sae..
he drank whiskey and was a little drunk at e end
he keep passing me his car key (LEXUS)
and ask me to drive him hm ltr
and ask "U noe whr I stay rite?"
at tat time everyone dere was asking me to take e key
saying tat "see, he so gd, give u car lehs.."
but I din take e key...

he is e second person whom really make me tao zui
but I am not gonna tink so much
everything is jus impossible
I am really getting confused over things recently
my thoughts jus went wild!!!

PS: will upload e pics sometimes soon =)